Hi KH, I came for a chat this afternoon, the sun was out and so were many visitors, treating the scattering lawn like a sunbathing area!!! So knowing what you would have done, I told them they were laying on top of people's ashes.... and they took the hint, leaving me in peace to put the flowers I brought for you out on the lawn. My birthday was fine, (the second one you've missed), went out for dinner with Carl, Sandra and Miss Diane which was nice, but nothing is going to replace the fuss you used to make of me on my day. I'm still struggling to find any initiative following this last lockdown, I'm busyish going to organised things but cannot get myself motivated enough to organise anything myself. The loneliness is hitting me harder now than before and despite being busy that void you've left behind still feels massive especially when I come home to an empty house that's lost its love and warmth. I just feel I'm existing with no purpose and I hate it!!!! Hopefully my trip to Gran Canaria next week will help? Love you always Simon Xxxxx